{"id":59,"date":"2008-09-18T12:30:26","date_gmt":"2008-09-18T17:30:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/georgejackie.com\/blog\/?p=59"},"modified":"2008-09-18T13:05:41","modified_gmt":"2008-09-18T18:05:41","slug":"when-im-feeling-lost","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/georgejackie.com\/blog\/2008\/09\/18\/when-im-feeling-lost\/","title":{"rendered":"When I’m feeling lost…"},"content":{"rendered":"
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...color finds it's way into my heart.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

I cannot see. I am typing blind and I am so sad about it. Why is it that I am allergic to computers? Or is it work? Am I meant to be a flower child, a hippie, a bum? Am I meant to live a life of spiritual enlightenment and let go of all material possessions and \u00e2\u20ac\u0153things\u00e2\u20ac\u009d? Am I living a life of routine? Brainwash? Submission? <\/p>\n

Of course I am!!! It\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s all because of a little emotion called fear. Where will I be without my big salary? Money is what makes the world go round, right? Why is everyone else working? It\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s not like they\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re stupid and I am going to be the smart one that quits. But what am I to do if I am allergic to my computer? Maybe I can go on worker\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s compensation for this allergy\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 It\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s quite clear that this will be a permanent problem though. <\/p>\n

Ah life! Isn\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t it interesting how things come about\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 The world keeps turning and I keep making choices, walking along my journey\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s path and wondering if I have gotten lost somewhere along the way\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 Should I turn back? Start from some other point? Change paths? Where will these lead though? They would be prettier some of them\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 filled with travel, adventure, instability, sadness, happiness, fortune, loss, COLOR!!! Accounting is so \u00e2\u20ac\u0153brown socks\u00e2\u20ac\u009d, \u00e2\u20ac\u0153white collars\u00e2\u20ac\u009d and \u00e2\u20ac\u0153gray suits\u00e2\u20ac\u009d\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 I want COLOR \u00e2\u20ac\u201c lots and lots of color, flowers, plants, trees, sky, earth, stars, sailboats, wind blowing through my hair, freedom to move \u00e2\u20ac\u201c hands in the air, songs, dance, laughter, peace, healthy energy around me\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 Where will it be? It\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s not here, not in this little conference room \u00e2\u20ac\u201c tucked away with beige walls, cold air and no windows, staring at my computer that is making me allergic.<\/p>\n

It\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s out there. In this wonderful world that God created I will find my colorful life, with my loving man next to me\u00e2\u20ac\u00a6 Hope he\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s willing to join me \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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