And here we go yet again. Another new crossroad in our life! In October 2011, a little after Dimitri’s first birthday, George and I decided it was time to close the chapter on condo living. Dimitri is growing rapidly and we’re getting that feeling inside us that it’s time for another little angel to come into our lives. And while our 4 years in the condo have been nothing short of beautiful, we knew that our dream for our children included a backyard, a basement, and mainly a home where they could do whatever they want, whenever they want, without having to think of our co-owners.

I never could have imagined how quickly things would happen. We listed at the end of October and now, at the end of February we are out of our condo and into our home!

Where can I begin? I vividly remember every moment of our condo purchase. I remember finding the listing, the first time we visited the neighbourhood with George, our first visit, second visit, cleaning that home and then finally our first night moving in. Our four years have been true bliss. Filled with love, yummy dinner making, movie nights, Christmases, family gatherings and memory-making. We lived through new love, marriage, pregnancy and bringing home our first child in this home. This home OOZES positive energy in so many ways.  Looking around me now, it breaks my heart to know that I am saying goodbye to a place that brought me so much joy. Yet it’s like everything else in our lives – temporary. A new chapter is now beginning. One where we will see Dimitri’s excitement in his new play area, one that will see a second (maybe third? Fourth?) pregnancy and birth, one that will see barbecues in the big backyard, playing in the pool, jumping around on the snow in the crescent, and NEW memory-making.

I am ready to say goodbye and to look one last time around me – lovingly remembering how blessed my life has been. It’s unbelievable to think of how life unravels. Six years ago, I was a completely different human being. I was trying to find myself, trying to understand why I lived through so many failed relationships, why I felt so lonely even when surrounded by people, and what my purpose in life was. I remember that February 2006. I remember telling myself that I alone can bring the abundance in my life I so longed for. And for the first time ever, I felt joy in my days, regardless of its events. I believe this conscious shift is what has brought so much beauty in my current life. This positivity brought me my George, a man who is even sweeter than my sweetest dreams. Don’t get me wrong, we most definitely have our hardships. In our five-year relationship, I have reached points where I have asked myself if we’ll make it. Can we overcome the statistics? Can we overlook each other’s differences and just love unconditionally? We’re working on it every day and it seems like the glue that holds us together is our intention to never be apart. Even in the hardships, we make sure to look for solutions, not ways out. My positivity has also brought me my son. There is no being in this entire universe more perfect than Dimitri and I say that in the most unbiased way possible 😉 Again, Dimitri and I have definitely had our ups and downs. There have been dark, dark moments in my life as a mother. Moments where I was crawled up at the corner of my kitchen floor completely inconsolable. Moments where my tears were endless, my trembling was unstoppable and my brain was clouded. Moments where I asked myself how I could get out of my life, my body, my thoughts. I honour those moments, because they have made me grow and learn more about life than the previous 30 years. Dimitri has been my greatest teacher in this world. I will forever be blessed for all that he has taught me – patience, unconditional love, endurance, positivity, true laughter, and forgiveness. I can say I forgive truly all those that have hurt me in my life, especially myself.

And so, as a grown-up now, 32 years young, I am ready to face my new chapter. Let this chapter continue to teach me about life’s mysteries and let my family grow and be HAPPY. Truly, freely, unconditionally happy.

I say goodbye to you – Chapter “Peaceful Bliss” and welcome you – Chapter “Happy Chaos” (Of course chaos, can you imagine if we end up with four kids????)!!!